Once again I'm into my emo mood again where I tend to think too much...

Whenever I am into this mood I feel so left out...although do feel this quite often but am feeling it acutely now...

Is it me or has people ard me changed? I am frequently left out of things or the last to know...be it at home or at work...it always make me feel like an idiot...make me feel like a pest avoided by people...and most of the time its because they juz assume...assume that I not free...assume that I know...assume that I will be like this or like that...

A lots of things have changed...maybe because of my evening schedules, its hard for me to meet up with my frens...on top of that, most of them are married and its even harder to meet up with them because of their family committment...even with H, things are also like that...unlike the times where we used to see each other almost everyday...unlike the times where we had a lot to say...unlike the times where we used to go out so often...things have changed...like today also, I'm left alone to go off by myself, so left out...is it because our path are different now? Or is it because we are on two supposedly different sides? Suddenly feel that the path ahead is so lonely...

Will try not to think so much, will try to stay cheerful...now will focus on my dreams...just gimme a few more years...cuz dreams are expensive...lol...

Parts of the songs "是你(我)变了吗" and "炫耀" feel so apt for me mood now...

- JOYL| 11:13 PM