So damn angry now...if it's mine I will say it's mine...and I did say it's mine...unlike some idiots who always say it's not theirs cuz they cannot be bothered to clean up and pack their things...how u expect them to clean up when they do not even know how to flush the toilet properly...dun feel like going home...can't wait to get out...$&@"-€£^.

- JOYL| 10:18 AM 0 comments

Feeling super blue today...yeah i know it is not a monday...super sianz...went for penitential service and although I tell myself not to cry, tears just flow...maybe its a way of letting it out...and after that no mood to eat even though I am hungry...lonely, feeling so lonely, I am so lonely...and why do i suddenly feel like everyone is allowed to show and have their whims and fancies except me...even at home also...why should I always put others before me...just because people are sad or angry so I cannot be sad or angry as it will make matters worse...maybe that's why I can stay at home alone for days without even stepping out of the house when i am not working...why do my thoughts always run wild when I am alone feeling blue...

Lucky i am optimistic by nature...feeling better as I am finishing this...random random thoughts GET OUT!!!!!!!!

- JOYL| 11:11 PM 0 comments

So fast it's end of June already...well, work is getting boring, monotonous, standard...but lot more bo liao thingy popping up, esp first 2 weeks of june...really wanna get away from all these bo liao thingy...it's has been getting on my nerve and my temper...arghhhhhhh....

Lucky there are things to keep me happy...yeah...the long awaited world cup is here again...south africa 2010...which means many super late nights...hahaha...so happy that I am able to watch on my lappy...the power of internet...muahahahaha...

Kinda like my mid June....happy happy gatherings...met up with S for makan and movie and discussing her wedding...now helping her find songs...we went to watch "nanny mcphee"...I like that show, it's nice...

Then within one week, met up with a bunch of siao kia...haha...my ex-students...they were really funny lor...haha...we had dinner then went watch "toy story 3"...it's really really nice...and towards the end it was so very touching, I almost cried...

And met up with yj, vv and py...all girls nite out...we met at this burmese restaurant at city hall...I must say the food is not bad...nice...hee hee...and it was so funny hearing py story on her quest for her son's primary school...

July coming...hmm...then august, the time to have fun...lol

- JOYL| 10:10 PM 0 comments

Finally the two days camp is over...guess this year camp got a lot of casualty...lol...injured knee, sprained back, blue-black here and there...and it's hard for many of us who are not used to waking up at earthly hours (ard 6am)...

This year it was held at Raffles Marina Country Club...not a bad place, very nice scenery...but I was too busy to take note of anything and to take photos...only two or three shown here...hee...










Had a good sleep finally...and I hope not again nxt year....

- JOYL| 4:58 PM 0 comments

Went kickboxing on tues after meeting...long time since I hit the studio for classes...used to go step and aerobic every weeks...but that was like years ago...lol...then had some jap food after that (minus the carbohydrates cuz we din order anything with rice or noodle)...went for a drink after that cuz dun feel like moving too much...haha

Had a relaxing wed...went out in the late afternoon and walk walk ard...legs still feeling tired from the kickboxing...lol...

And wat a morning I had on thurs lor...hurt my toes 3 times in one morning within 2 hours...wth~...first i had to kick my toes against the chair which vacuuming...then on the way to work, kick my feet against the steps while rushing up the bus...then on the way down the steps from mrt, din realise the rubber part of my shoes came out and I went slipping down the steps...jam my foot hard against the steps to prevent myself from falling down...though I din fall but the front part esp the toes, hurt like hell... -_-""

Finally a week is almost over...am looking forward to the 2 holidays in may....wahaha...

- JOYL| 8:43 PM 0 comments

Once again I'm into my emo mood again where I tend to think too much...

Whenever I am into this mood I feel so left out...although do feel this quite often but am feeling it acutely now...

Is it me or has people ard me changed? I am frequently left out of things or the last to know...be it at home or at work...it always make me feel like an idiot...make me feel like a pest avoided by people...and most of the time its because they juz assume...assume that I not free...assume that I know...assume that I will be like this or like that...

A lots of things have changed...maybe because of my evening schedules, its hard for me to meet up with my frens...on top of that, most of them are married and its even harder to meet up with them because of their family committment...even with H, things are also like that...unlike the times where we used to see each other almost everyday...unlike the times where we had a lot to say...unlike the times where we used to go out so often...things have changed...like today also, I'm left alone to go off by myself, so left out...is it because our path are different now? Or is it because we are on two supposedly different sides? Suddenly feel that the path ahead is so lonely...

Will try not to think so much, will try to stay cheerful...now will focus on my dreams...just gimme a few more years...cuz dreams are expensive...lol...

Parts of the songs "是你(我)变了吗" and "炫耀" feel so apt for me mood now...

- JOYL| 11:13 PM 0 comments